so another unwanted ending of something. but what the hell that i can do? i didn’t know that you still wanted me to be you blablabla after i told you that just be my bestfriend okay. it’s not your fault. maybe it’s mine. so yeah i’m sorry
difficult to explain
difficult to accept
have tried to disappear for moment, but things are stay the same
have talked to them, and they said this is the process to be mature
let’s just say okay
and not being selfish
and also i got what i need instead of what i want.
he dreamt about me like several days ago, but since it was a beautiful dream i suggested him not to telling me. but for the truth, i’d be sooo happy hearing his dream about me.
for people who using blackberry, there’s application called MemoPad right?and i’m wise enough to use it. memo? memorize, it was there to memorize us what to do etc. for me, i like to use it as my hmm i usually writes a great song that i just heard and my little diary there’s 3 tittle of my MemoPad. first, “ciggies” it’s not a list of my cigarette brand and i’m not smoking either. it’s a memo full of hundreds song list that i even forget to download it.
> Million Young - Cynthia
> Yuna - Decorate
> Beats Fossils - Window View
> Two Doors Cinema Club - New Houses
> Breakbot - Penelope Pitstop
> The Daysleepers - Twillight Bloom
> God Is An Astronaut - The End Of Beginning
and there’s a loooootttttt more. second tittle is “victory rose” it’s actually an english translation from icelandic language sigur ros, the one and only band that could open my mind every time i listen to their song, to their driving crazily songs.
> Sigur Ros - Hoppipolla
> Sigur Ros - Olsen Olsen
> Sigur Ros - Staralfur
> Sigur Ros - Gong Endir Andvari
> Sigur Ros - Agaetis Byrjun
> Sigur Ros - Ekki Mukk
> Sigur Ros - Glosoli
> Sigur Ros - Vaka
> Sigur Ros - I Gaer
And a lot more, i’ve listened their whole albums and i can’t barely wait for 10th May and the last title is “his life” and i’m not going to release it today hahaha, happy kepo honey.
as the time goes by, i finally realized thay i had never
i remember all you’re jokes
all your faithful advice
and all i know i had never find someone like you before
Now, i find someone really really interesting
he plays guitar
he likes chelsea.
and he’s so and beyond cute
he’s the only son in his family
and that scares me a lot
like almost everything he does by himself
he did smoke, and now he promise to not do it again
i have known him for quiet long time
we talk almost everyday
and we do skype sometimes
but since i don’t know what is it, it’s a bit hard to explain
well, this is not important. you know that i like you, you know that i love you.
the only thing that i’m afraid about is that you’re not the one.
i mean who knows it anyway? nobody know what will be happened
and fyi i write a lot about you, everywhere such as books, papers, anything.
for me it’s a fine thing if you leave someday
because people come and go away just like a cycle
it’s a fine thing that you find someone a lot better than me
it’s your life, it’s your business.
only God know
so yeah, you smile? or you thinking about something?
okay, today was great. i’ve been trough things that giving me so much happiness. and for the top of it, i thank God for giving me a lot like a lot of great friends. they are mean so much to me. everyday i meets them, i smiles to them, talks and laughs together. there is one guy that catch my attention actually. because we are just so connected. everything i wanna say, just run out from my mind and my mouth easily when i can talk with him. ahaha i know some people will think that i’m in love with him, but please stop. why can’t we be friend first? then when things going to be more serious, it will be happen right. i really wanna thank God million zillion times. everything seems so good right now, the only thing that bothers me is just massive homeworks that feels like it will never ends.
finally found my genre, ambient. sigur ros, moby, BoC, air, aphex twin, ect are bands with ambient music. they helps me to do everything out of mind. btw yesterday i sincerely became just a new cool friend to someone. he said like, i’m the only girl that he can talk about music, life, and love with. after that “you’ve got a friend” by McFly was played in radio. and i was like hyaaaahhhh it’s a fine thing you know, knowing that someone really like to talk to you. and i’m hundred percents sure that we will always be a great friend, kaaay. ps: go find sigur ros on youtube, they’re uhhmazing
There’s not much going on today
I’m really bored, it’s getting late
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday’s coming, the day I hate